You feel like you are at place of no return but right now you can’t go forward. And you are so afraid. The fear wells up into anxiety, which builds to a breaking point. You are in a chasm of pain filled with your silent screams. And the tear in your soul makes your mind go numb and your body physically ache…
Have you been here?
Have you been in this no-man’s land?
A spouse’s gut-wrenching decision. The heart-heavy loss of a child. Bone-deep grief that you can’t explain.
Once we reach this precipice, we can’t turn around to go back to life the way it was. I don’t think God has inserted this painful process into your life to make you suffer or to teach you a lesson. BUT, I do think that if you allow Him, He can take your hand in His and walk with you through it, step-by-step. Your steps might be slower than they were before. If you let Christ, He will be the bridge you need for this season of grief.
Maybe getting to the other side of the pain is not the purpose…
Maybe how we are allowing God to transform us during the journey is what matters most.
16 Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. 17 For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, 18 while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (NASB)
Our outer body is being broken down by the sorrow of this life, but our inner man can be renewed through experiencing these heavy things. And what can be such a burden in this life is creating an even weightier, forever-and-ever place where these tears will be wiped away, never to be cried again.